I'm not giving up...but I'm worried. As with most plans, life likes to happen all over them and send a monkey wrench into the works.
I got a letter today from my worker stating that due to my daughter turning 18 this month, we will lose the TANIF for her and her medical as of Dec. 2010.
I've been dreading this, as the whole job/income situation isn't good. One min. wage job would cover the loss of the funds, but I'm hoping to get her back on some sort of medical coverage. My son has suffered from no medical for several years, having to opt to go to the ER when things got bad. This is why we so need a public option in this country. But that's not helping out those that need help right now.
I've got to go to the water company tomorrow to try and see if I have any interest available on my deposit to put down on my bill. I don't have the money to pay for it. If we're lucky we'll get up $10 for scrapping the metal we've collected.
Thankfully, my sister covers the cable(internet) for me so I have a phone(magic jack) and a way to access the world. Without that link I'd fall into a worse depression and be no help at all. With this resource I at least can reach out to find assistance and ideas.
If anyone knows of resources in Augusta, GA that really do help - that will actually do something - anything at all to really help...let me know. Cause I'm not getting any positive reactions from those that I've tried - it's always the same...we don't have any money. we can't help you. try next month. In other words, you're on your own, good luck. good bye.
I know that there are others out there in worse shape, in worse situations. I just don't want to join them or be in their situation. If I can climb out of this hole, I'm in a better position to lend them a hand up. If I'm down there with them, were all in the same boat...a sinking one.
All the way up to this last year, I've given and given where ever I found a way to do so. I gave out care packages, I gave boxes of clothes, goods and more to those that needed a holiday. I did all I could, because I know what it's like - I've been homeless before.
But now, I've come to the end of my means. I'm running out of funds to keep us going. Now I'm not able to get the items that my family needs.
(Shampoo, hand soap, basic first aid supplies, female items, etc.)
I was lucky I stocked up on things when I was able to, getting things in bulk. But now those reserves are gone.
I'm feeling very alone right now. I know that many are feeling that way and we should not have to go through this in this country. It's wrong! Something is very very out of sync with the norm when so many are suffering so much. I'm in quicksand, but I'm not going to give up. I am going to keep my head, I'm going to trust that I will find a way. That someone will offer help. That somehow, somewhere the help will come. I have to believe...or I will lose all hope.
